A few of the random things on my mind at the moment. I need to go to bed. I hope we get the money soon. Do I really want it to work, or do I jsut think I do? I miss her. He needs to leave me alone. How did I end up in this total fucking three point situation? Coffe. Starbucks in particular. I wish Camel No. 9's were still legal. So tired. Need something to read. I'm writing to make up for lost time. I really shouldn't, though. It just ends up being this huge fucking mess of emotions for me. I need to let it out more slowly. I may not even be showing emotions on here, but I'm feeling all kinds of them just from writing so damned much. But isn't that why I love writing? I think so. Bed? I think not. I need a ciggerette. It needs to stop raining so much. The rain is making me so sleepy. I need music playing. Wish my iPod wasn't dead. Do I really have what it takes? I need to take off all these layers, it's too warm in here for them. Joss Stone is playing, that's much better. Ugh; life. I think I'm kinda sad right now, but I don't know why. I also think I forgot to take my anti depressant and mood stabalizer the past two nights. That's probably why. I can't stop shivering. I talk too much. And I type fast but I keep making hesitations because I lose my train of thought, and I also keep making mistakes 'cause I'm so tired and I keep having to backspace to correct them. I miss my great grandma. Despite the fact that I basically think about random shit like this at once, and do so all the time, every time I try to think of something intentionally, my mind draws a total blank. That's really weird. I really hope my teacher lets me perform my piece again. If not, I get an F. In fucking piano. So not right. I think I'm going to go ahead and go to bed. I don't want to yet, though. I guess I kinda have to, though. I need to remember to write more tomorrow. That's all. ZoomZoom(:
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